It is my principle to keep as much memories as possible, as ugly as
\nsome may be, so that I do not forget myself and where I come from.<\/p>\n
It is said, we learn from our mistakes, but we can learn from the mistakes of others as well, as my Lord Jesus Christ put it: \"...That No It has Why I left?<\/p>\n Why shouldn't I. Because CCGCLI The But that is not the cause of the problem that troubled me. The cause had to be a theological one.<\/p>\n First Rev. Chen Chi, Rev. John Chen, pastoring but I would say, trying to mix human logic, righteousness and dramatic emotions into God's autocratic doctrine would deprave and twist one's own faith.<\/p>\n Now, It is easier to allow our sense of justice, pride, emotions, jealousy and selfishness to make us ignore the truth, keeping us in the bondage of agony and suffering despite our struggling and self-confidence. But only the truth shall set us free<\/em>. John 8:32 <\/strong><\/p>\n Let them do what they want. But I pray that God in all His patience and mercy will continue to bless CCGCLI in growth of knowledge and grace of our Lord Jesus Christ. For I believe that there are still those who truly serve God at CCGC, and perhaps their love would affect the others, even the impossible ones, in true servitude to the Lord, rather than in a emotionally influenced and humanistic one.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" It is my principle to keep as much memories as possible, as ugly as some may be, so that I do not forget myself and where I come from. It is said, we learn from our mistakes, but we can … Continue reading
\nexcept your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes
\nand Pharisees, ye shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.<\/em>\" Matthew 5:20<\/strong><\/p>\n
\ndoubt, my first entries were filled with anger, a sense of betrayal,
\nguilt, regret and remorse. Nevertheless, I will not remove those
\nentries, as they all identify my journey. Impatience and laziness often
\nwork together for the destruction of one's well-being.<\/p>\n
\nbeen a little more than a year since I left CCGC, a loving Chinese
\nbaptist church on Long Island, after enjoying and suffering 7 years
\nwith them.<\/p>\n
\nneeded me? I thought that too, which was why I stayed. But God doesn't
\nNEED anyone. We often deceive ourselves in this for selfish reasons. Am
\nI their pastor? Did I promise not to leave? Are they my sheep? Nay,
\nmerely my brethren, just as those living much closer to me in the city.<\/p>\n
\nmore they tried to stop me, the more I knew - it would end badly. But
\nwho am I to defy God in the wisdom and precious time He has granted me?
\nAre vain friendship and human praises that important?<\/p>\n
\npastor I encountered, Rev. Serena Lin. Very caring, very enthusiastic.
\nUnfortunately, she thought it was right to trade her pastoral position
\nwith her marriage. To do that, she would have to defy every passages of
\nthe Scripture that call \"wife submit to husband\", and make democratic votes as God's calling. I believe until this
\nis changed in her, there will always be a kind of childishness in her
\nwhen dealing with deeper and more serious matters. No doubt, this is
\nrelevant to why some would consider the student fellowship members
\noften behave childishly. Perhaps this was why so many pastors have
\nrefused carrying her torch when she left.<\/p>\n
\nobviously has his own American dream life. I understand he's now doing
\nvery well in Elim Church, after a year of suffering at our church. If
\nonly he had left sooner...or did he expect he could get rid of John
\nChen, based on his trying to single John out in some activity. Was he
\nreally that sure of his faith and the work of the Holy Spirit?<\/p>\n
\nDavid F. Chen (Chen Feng Qing), one who relied on the reponses of others to want to become
\npastor. I should have seen this in the beginning. Boy was I so blind.
\nNevertheless, he had all the experiences and knowledge spoon fed to
\nhim. Unfortunately, the praises of men have blinded him. As a preacher, Paul Washer,
\nrightly put it:\" Some evangelists should have spent less time preaching
\nand more time studying their Bible\". A pastor should know if he's
\ncalled by God after the consideration of all obstacles, that is the
\nvery initial defining key of a pastor.<\/p>\n
\nnot a pastor. Perhaps it is time. What example is he setting for those
\nwho are supposed to be on the pastoral path? If he is not called, does
\nhe not know the lesson of Uzzah where Uzzah would blame it on the
\ncattles and lazy priests, he blames it on his \"unavoidable\" responsibility as a \"Christian\"? Was it
\nnot Uzzah alone that God struck?<\/p>\n
\nafter a year, I have not heard from them. I merely slightly rebuked
\nJohn privately when he begged me to stay. If a slight rebuke made him
\nnot wanting to speak to me after my departure against his desire, what
\nwould he do if I stayed and rebuked? Fire me as he did the pastors who had
\nlittle frictions with him?<\/p>\n