A good thing about keeping a journal is that I can reflect my past without memory lost.
I can grow in such a way in much areas.
I shall make it short.
This summary should do well in all defenses that I had possibly faced:
I put my thoughts only in my journal not for hiding for I have already confronted the opponents in question directly. It is not for gossip. Therefore, I do not distribute or publish my entries. It is for me to know and for others to find out. If they don't like it, the solution is easy: Don't read them.
This journal is online because it is convenient and I have nothing to hide. I do not act one way on the surface while secretly think the opposite in my heart. I think this is a Christian's homework.
Now onto my former church CCGCLI. Do I love her? I sure do. Especially when one of my brother in Christ re-visited the church a couple of months ago from Colorado, I felt I was re-connected to an old home looking at the photos he took.
Why did I leave CCGCLI? Because the leadership's corruption is revealed and most importantly, they say but do not truly do the great commission. I have proven this. Their true desire is to stay childish and praise each other to show off their social skills. Other than making social networks for their emotional needs, they are not concerned about the souls of others. And they desire to make more like them.
They, are simply the retreated pastor Serena Lin and John Chen who had assumed leadership roles in one way or another. Unless they have repented now, which I sincerely hope so, it would be a pity, with such enthusiasm, such energy, that they cannot be in submission to Christ our Lord.
If any should have problem with my harsh comments, they should know, if there is any harm done to me, I shall be as a lamb; but if there is harm done to others, especially within the church (in this case: the dethroning of 2 ordained pastors consecutively), I will be as a lion and strike down the hypocrites. Thus, should any have a problem with this, it is better that one asks oneself as to why is one supporting such irreverence towards ordinations in God's name and such lack of love towards these 2 brothers (Rev. Chen Chi & the late Rev. David Chen) in our Lord, before one dares to judge, even secretly, of my observations. Lest I will have to pull out the sword yet again in defense of the victims.
Thus ends my summary of my former church, CCGCLI. May God bless those still at CCGCLI who are striving for His glory in the aftermath of this. And may God teach me to love them more. Amen.