Inedicabilis.
Since a child, I have been curious;
The mysteries which may have been falsely revealed:
Mentis, carneus et connubialis,
I never did get any answers I asked for...
As if occultus, consilio! Inedicabilis.
Anger, rage, invidia repletus mei sinus.
So close but yet so far...In fact, unreachable...
Why the lies? Anger upon anger I grew within, unnoticeably.
The desire has reaped within me, my sinful nature grew towards the end...Death.
Oh, but a forte that God has not let me alone in His absolute will.
Why the jealousy? Why to hate? God has revealed His true mystery unto an unworthy soul like me.
I prayed but never truly prayed. I repented but never truly repented.
My pride and my lust, disguised as my righteousness.
If not elect Thou me, how far would my satisfaction go? How long would I wear my mask?
If not elect Thou me, would I abhor my mask and let my soul renew?
What great preacher art Thou,
Why is my heart in such awe?
What faith has a kumarion,
If not Thy grace first revealed.
What promises dare I seal,
If not of Thy faithful words.
Why is my heart in such awe?
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