When talking about the weakness of this great individual who had remarkable influence in India, one often would recall her confession of how she felt no presence of God for 50 years at the end of her life.
I would conclude this: It is not God who strays but we; It is not God who has abandoned us but ourselves; It is not God who is not present but we who weren't standing before Him when He called to us.
Loose not Thy hand, until Thou hast made me a blessing, O my Lord!