I deeply believe that I have achieved three things in CCGCLI, contrasting to what others think how God has used me there.
1. To enforce the doctrine that a man is the head of a woman. Very important, especially when dealing with marriages.
2. To enforce the doctrine of those who are set apart to be Holy before God being the only ones who can serve God.
3. Last but not least, theological study. Not easy. But I have finally done this to some extend(though yet to be completed until this week or the next), that is through the library, besides implementing it in other areas such as Sunday Schools, conversations, etc.
These are the main doctrines that had been jeopardized ever since I got there. No one has dared to fix it, because one would get attacked for doing so.
My music talents are not as impressive as they tried to imagine, my dedication in commuting to the church every week has more to do with sharing the Grace of God than "loyalty" as they wanted to believe. Nonetheless, I have never kept these as secret, for those who have ears, let them hear.
Nevertheless, the seeds of truth and holiness have been planted.
"When you need me, but do not want me, then I must stay. When you want me, but no longer need me, then I have to go". --Nanny McPhee.
Those who failed to persuade me to stay resolved to calling me or implying that I'm irresponsible to save their own faces. Which is rather interesting.
Since I was never officially a member of CCGCLI, they really have some guts calling me thus.
Moreover, my 2 'years' notice was given even prior to my elecion of deaconship, of which office is by constitution replaceable and may not exceed 3 years. To think that by making me a deacon after knowing I will leave means that I wouldn't leave is childish, not to mention cunning, instead of confronting me directly of my departure and settle everything then and there. Unless, contrary to my willingless to help serve in church as a valued deacon, their motive was actually to make me stay and using deaconship as an excuse. Why then, calling irresponsible after making me a deacon and not before?
For that, I was very troubled for a while because here I was working very hard on displaying God's glory among NON-believers while these brothers and sisters behaving more childish than the pagans.
I pray that they would learn to grow up one day.
But speaking of responsibility, it would be really irresponsible for those who got what they want and their ideology fulfilled via human supports, instead of faith in God and His words, to leave, like one ofthe former pastor, perhaps even after the constitutional 3 years of deaconship or whatever agreement of any office, unless they repent of their ways.