My Journal

Among all gods, they are of a common standard amongst themselves. They may seem superior to the lesser beings. But there is one above...one that has no common ground with any. If such is not bounded, such has no authority given, hence such is the authority of all.

Amaru: I have reached my boundaries and yet it is not enough.

Timidus: Perhaps it is time to stop!

Amaru: Stop? I have the ability to continue, I will not stop.

Timidus: It is not wise to do so!

Lacrimas: You are not supposed to go beyond that which you were told, it is wrong to do otherwise, despite your ability.

Amaru: Is it not right for me to strive? Is it not my nature to see pass the wonders beneath, towards the wonders beyond? If I have this conscience, how can I be wrong? Simply by not doing anything? I am not harming anyone.

Timidus: Sometimes you don't know if you harm anyone. For everything in nature, there is balance.

Lacrimas: That which is beyond our understanding, yes, it is wise to challenge and to strive, but not if we have been told otherwise.

Amaru: Do you listen to what you were told? or do you struggle to success?

Lacrimas: Not if we're told by the superior.

Timidus: This superior is never wrong.

Verti: How can you know that?

Amaru: It is not my interest to know if any superior is right or wrong.

Verti: Yes, so what if any superior is right or wrong?

Lacrimas: We are not free from such.

Amaru: If we strive, we will...we are conscious, such is our responsibilities.

Lacrimas: Do you not see a bigger picture?

Timidus: One must control oneself.

Amaru: I have the will to power, as long as I am conscious, I will.

Lacrimas: Your Purpose! Have you ever stopped to see where you are heading? Do you exist out of your own free will? Yet you do not see that. For you only see the freedom within yourself, a freedom if measured from beyond your existence, could very well be a slavery of sort. Inescapable suicide.

Amaru: That which is beyond me I cannot comprehend. But I will strive to what I am capable of, and perhaps I could reach that which is beyond.

Timidus: There is respect, there must be reverence. Despite causes and reasons.

Verti: Causes and reasons are what make principles. Can principles be denied?

Timidus: Order is higher than this.

Amaru: For there is order, there is also chaos. We cannot take in one, and ignore the other. One who knows the self, should know to explore all resources available. And make use, and benefit. After striving through all resources, then decide by oneself which is right, and which is wrong.

Verti: Yes. How can we know, if the ultimate wisdom in all these are not meant for us? How can we know if the final revelation of all these will not be our inheritance.

Lacrimas: If it is ours, there is no hurry.

Amaru: I see the path, I immediately stive to suceed. Carefully. I do it carefully, without causes of the despised.

Timidus: And if all go wrong? What do you do?

Verti: History has shown great achievements don't come cheap.

Lacrimas: Have you ever come to think, the ability to stop all these may have been rid of you? Why have you not strive for this ability?

Amaru: There is no such ability. Only such illusion. I have the power, I use it.

Timidus: Such ability is within ourselves. It is real.

Verti: Timidus, you're just playing it safe. We see a way to progress at a higher pace, why can't you understand that?

Amaru: As long as we have the controlling will to not be obsessed, we are on a good path. Lacrimas, you were like us, ignoring what was told, but you change your mind so swiftly when you hit the ceiling.

Lacrimas: I know when I must stop. And I know I could have done better than knowing when to stop, that is knowing not to start in the first place. You ignore my advice because you do not fear, you do not know your beyond. You think you do by stiving from beneath, everything expecting to burst through the beyond, but you never really do. You never will, for you are not of the beyond.

Timidus: There is a balance.

Lacrimas: balancing things around is not enough. For there is nature, there is also beyond nature, for there is time, there is also beyond time. How can beyond nature and beyond time be another nature and time? For they are beyond? And we are all in agreement with the infinite of the beyond eventhough we do not grasp the concept. But we do know that such beyond is the beyond of everything we understand. Therefore, we are bounded. If this beyond is beneath another beyond, how can it be boundless? It cannot be beyond. No, the beyond I am talking about is the ultimate beyond. Beyond of all. And our connection to such is that we are beneath, always. For if we say we reach the beyond, one would say he is too ignorant, the other would wonder a greater beyond. Such, is always beneath.

Timidus: Then it is our duty to seek what relationship we have with that which is beyond.

Lacrimas: This much is revealed. And more is coming. It is inevitable. Rules and commands have been set. Sovereignty has been expressed. How is it that you heed not? Do you not know the responsibility of time? Everything you have ignored has been taken by time. So you see, time is with you, what you've ignored is still with you. Hence your choice is accountable. It is an illusion otherwise, an illusion of the illusion of will defeats conscience. But conscience and will work hand in hand. It is not about seeking power, it is about seeking the truth. It is inevitable. A freedom by the truth, is more permanent satisfaction than that of the power.[@more@]