It's been 7 years I've been with this church, and I think it's time for me to move on.
My mission and my vision in the city has not been productive because I couldn't commit enough as I thought I could.
Ever since I've taken the short seminary courses, I have learned a lot and was greatly motivated to preach the Gospel and to serve God in orthodox doctrine.
I believe I have shared my most precious treasures with fellow members of CCGCLI, but it is time for me to leave.
From all that I've learned, observed and studied, I find that authority is very very important. And that is what many church leaders fail to realize. This authority is obviously not the kind of authority in "human" terminology. But because there's no other words in our limited expressive language, it is such so that TRUE authority triumphs over false authority. Those who have this authority, often failed to use it with the excuse of "humility". Those who have no such authority, faked it with the excuse of "compassion".
Since the last Sunday school, I've been thinking for a long long time, especially yesterday, from dusk until almost dawn, that I've come to realized that my position there is more of adding a number rather than having an authority in my position.
I have declared that my time serving there was up long ago. But no one seemed to take it seriously and instead, made me deacon, and there were even some "supposedly innocent" form of beauty trap involved. I can see how truly enthusiastic and God loving they are in sharing God's love, which is why I've been staying with them to learn from them. But time has come that I must make my stand in my faith that whatever we do, we cannot disregard our intention, purity of motives and God's will even though we might think that what we do is done "on God's side". I had seen there's no need for such task of deaconship before as the church wasn't too big or that one need not be a deacon to help out in certain area. I was naive in accepting it eventually, but I was wrong. Before it has been made official, I must step down immediately. Otherwise, the motive is not right and it has been something I've been preaching against.
I must soberly see the church of God as the whole pasture and not just CCGCLI.
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