My Journal

If scriptural truth is not what they treasure, then I have no place with them.

Within the context of Christians and those who claim Christians, if I choose a Malaysian or Indonesian or any of the approximate vicinity as wife over that of the Western culture (contrary to my past prominent love for most everything Caucasian), it is not because of color or language or race; but of the hypocrisy taught by their Western Christian parents (if of a strict, conservative sect), or the lust of flesh and worldly matters (of the liberal sect). Neither, would easily help my cause to glorify God: The first would tempt me into selfish seclusion, the latter would sway me from Godly pursue.

For some already a graduate of theological institute who in such pursue and knowledge is more slack than I, it is amazing that such person should ask me to enroll.

It is not the enrollment itself that is the enigma, but the person who requests.

Just happen to have a few scallops in my fridge. Bought Gordon Ramsay's Healthy Appetite book from Barnes and Noble, will return due to ebay. Don't know much about sauteing scallops yet. But this much I can do with Laksa's leftovers...

Recent conversation with my mother made me recollect some events in the past.

It is certain that I strongly believe match making is a sin, on most aspects, since those who committed it are unsure of the consequences as if a gambler who either thinks he/she is incredible when winning or leaves irresponsibly after losses.

I have seen the match makers around me. Some put no effort, as if playing lottery, and see if the church will grow this way, some however, do put in some effort.

It is regarding the latter one, that I am putting this entry now.

They indeed showed some level of care and enthusiasm. Inviting me and the other party for a nice dinner, introducing parents, relatives, with much effort, somewhat.

However, one terrible fault was made. Now I've always made myself and my stand clear before anyone could blame their errors on oblivion. But whether they have their own belief as to where I should go or they were simply overflowed with enthusiasm, that does not give them the right to suppress true motive with a general motive.

So in return, I did make some friends and a free delicious juicy dinner. I have, no doubt, felt sorry whether I had been too harsh upon such "usage of blessing" upon a human being, and have prayed long and hard upon such issue. But in the end, I am certain, always tell the truth, true motive must be shown in both verbal communication and action, so that there may be no regret nor embarrassment. They could consider what regret and losses they have suffered as payment for such lesson.

My God is the God of TRUTH.

Teachers are those who affect certain aspect if not all of one's life. There are many forms of teachers: spiritual, parental, academic and natural.

Those whom we truly perceive as our teachers (though that doesn't necessarily make them true teachers), are those whom we are willing to accept rebuke and admonishment from.