Do you really know who the devil is? Do you really know Satan?
So many has been misguided. You think Satan is one who do you harm. Think of who Jesus called "Satan".
The only canon is the word of God. Pray harder.
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A recent conversation with a certain someone has indirectly rekindled something "supressed" within me for a while.
I
believe as many would, that a man and a woman in love could have a bond
so great that its unbreakable. Nonetheless, however unbreakable it is,
this bond is nothing if it's not kept in check under the love and
commandments of God.
This feeling I had was from of old. One
might ask if I have girlfriend or if I am married. I believe I could
have had such, had I not paid too much attention on academics. I had
valued knowledge over everything, a grave mistake. I have never started
any relationship more than friendship. However, I wasn't like that
before. I loved to have such relationship at an age when most boys and
girls were still immaturely disgusted by each other. I have watched one
great opportunity go by after another. The heartache was unbearable. I
could do nothing but swallow the pain. In college, love and the grace
of God has forbidden me to interfere a future of a past which I have
not made. I have come to see that old fashion saying "Don't encourage
your kids to date or they won't study well" to be flawed. It is crucial
that parents need to reconsider this.Nevertheless, it is unwise to not minding who your children are dating.
I really don't like to use the terms "dating" or "boyfriend" and "girlfriend" because many have used these as a cultural excuse to enjoy satisfaction over temperance, avoiding commitments and being hurt. But what other words could I use in English. Language is just a symbol. The words "Pat-Toh" from my mother dialect has a less corrupted definition.
If this relationship is well, it WILL affect one's academics. But not worse. In fact, it will be better, one could study harder with his/her partner, encouraging each other. It's the pre-"leap of faith".
If however such relationship in prevented, one would be affected by his/her loneliness and perhaps even jealousy. These, against the will to do any other crucial moments in life. One could turn out to be very depressed or self-righteous in denial, or both.
It is not good for a man to be alone....God said that. Of course, every child, male or female, does not have the same perspective at the same age. Some could share love with each other at a younger age than some others, while some would have more to share when they meet at a later life. Age, any age, is relative.
As for characters, it doesn't necessary have to be the same. In fact it could be just the opposite. Different interests, different attitudes, etc. Last but not least, most important of all, different in sex. Some differences could turn into admirations instead of jealousy and boredom due to toleration in similarities. Of course, similarities are also good for encouragement too.
It's useless to cry over it for a long time. Why do we fall? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.
In fact, a christian should meditate on the fact that we are weak, we are sinners and we are enemies of God when suffering depression. Romans 5:6-11.
Hence, how could I despise such relationship? Is it not a blessing from God since the creation? For those who envy, do not be jealous. It doesn't matter if you are male or female, just take the initiative.
As for me, how could I not want this wonderful blessing? Who would reject a beatiful blessing unless they are blind? No, I'm not rejecting it. However, I have a burden to carry, a burden I'm prepared to die for, but not so soon. This is all I have to say here.
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Since a child, I have been curious;
The mysteries which may have been falsely revealed:
Mentis, carneus et connubialis,
I never did get any answers I asked for...
As if occultus, consilio! Inedicabilis.
Anger, rage, invidia repletus mei sinus.
So close but yet so far...In fact, unreachable...
Why the lies? Anger upon anger I grew within, unnoticeably.
The desire has reaped within me, my sinful nature grew towards the end...Death.
Oh, but a forte that God has not let me alone in His absolute will.
Why the jealousy? Why to hate? God has revealed His true mystery unto an unworthy soul like me.
I prayed but never truly prayed. I repented but never truly repented.
My pride and my lust, disguised as my righteousness.
If not elect Thou me, how far would my satisfaction go? How long would I wear my mask?
If not elect Thou me, would I abhor my mask and let my soul renew?
What great preacher art Thou,
Why is my heart in such awe?
What faith has a kumarion,
If not Thy grace first revealed.
What promises dare I seal,
If not of Thy faithful words.
Why is my heart in such awe?
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Why do we fall?
So we can learn to pick ourselves up.
-- From <Batman Begins 2005> also,
It's not who you are underneath; it's what you do that defines you.
What glory is this, if we do not attribute it to God? For such are merely studies of common revelation from above.
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Here's the come back of my magic trick. Let's see what other excuse can you give me...
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On Predestination:
When one believed and the other didn't believe after hearing the Gospel, what makes one different than the other?
Any other answer will be wrong or inaccurate.
But sola gratia is the only answer.
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If you have not read and understood 1 Corinthians Chapter 9, do not think that you could lead a celibate life. Not unless you are prevented from birth or by men.
Marriage is a holy and sacred gift from God. It is one of the best and most beatiful blessings on Earth.
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Eventhough I have seen critics on the Da Vinci Code, I would still like to attend Dr. Tong's lecture on this matter on June 18th in Singapore.
Teleportation, that's a technology I could use...too bad, it seems to be as improbable as time travel. Nevertheless, if it existed, what absent minded scientist would announce it to public? Even a fool could see the simplest causality. Or am I being too selfish?
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When you're down, when you're lonely, where do you think you are?
Struggling and pretending to grab or replace that which had been seemingly taken from you,
or giving up EVEN life itself?
A communion with friends and loved ones is no more than a timed happiness, but a communion with them under the grace and mercy of God is a true blessing indeed. For who else is the TRUE expert on Eternity?
So stop running,
have no fear...God is here!
Where do you think you are now?
Oh Timothy, Timothy, you have come this far, it is not because you are any good but because of the grace of God. Should you have any slightest of pride, may God rebuke you with such great lightning and thunder that you'll go deaf and blind until you repent. For it is better to be struck and remain in the Lord than to be given all the satisfactions of this world and not even realizing that you've been disowned by God.
Dear Lord, do not leave me unless you've blessed me.
Amen.
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It is certain that I'll leave this country. Only because I have no reason to stay. God has shown me what I needed to see. Things that I don't need to come to America to see. But I came anyway, yet God showed me still, because of His mercy upon me.
If I stay, whatever I do, even God's work, would only make me a entrepreneurial businessman, a successful one, happy, surrounded by caring and loving family. Businessman? Never was my dream. Surrounded by happy family? Yes. I wanted a researcher's life too. A scientist, with a love and caring family. A christian one. In fact, I wanted to do everything that came to mind, in addition to anything God has commanded me since youth. "No one can do everything, no one can learn everything", my father once warned me when I was perhaps under 10. I was so eager to learn and gain the source of everything that I failed to see my own pride. I wanted all knowledge, not money, but the knowledge and power of obtaining money. I never had interest in money, only the interest of having anything I need at a snap of my fingers. The phrase "Knowledge is Power" had sunken me into oblivion with pride. My mother had once given me to God since my birth. What lies ahead I do not know. But I have come this far under His grace, how could I resist? There are enough of His servants here and they like it here. Many still will come. My calling has been to those who dare not preach. Even since I was young. I have no pride in this, for I am neither looking for a highway suicide. But perhaps the path that God lays ahead for me is something far worse than a suicide mission, yet such cross will be my glory, forever and ever.
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