My Journal

When we sin, God punishes us in ways we do not agree.

It is better this way, than hell fire.

I have no peace, unless I am with Thee and Thou with me.

I know You cannot be with me, if I let not my pride away.

How long can I allow my conscience to be clouded by darkness, lest I see my pride,

How could I get out of this bondage, if I seek not Thy light behind the cloud.

Can I use work and my servitude to justify my righteousness? Oh Lord, Thou have shown greater mercy upon me more than Nadab and Abihu.

I ask now for nothing else, not a blessed servitude, not a blessed work, but Thy sanctification.

Let me be worthy to say, In the name of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, I pray Thee, Amen.

I just got back from Brooklyn celebrating an old friend's son's 2nd birthday. As I was going to load pictures I took, I realized I may have left my camera in my friend's car. This isn't the first time I've left things behind. How should I fix this mistake?

Is the begging of men that innocent?
Is the praise of men too illusive to discern?
Is the reason of men so intrusive?
Is the friendship of men so blinding?

Oh Lord! Forgive me for I have sinned. For I rest not for your instructions, for I let the trouble of the world strike me so hard that I think I would strike for You first! Worse! I even make my unholy sword Yours!

I will do such thing no more. Grant me mercy, my Lord!

One of the greatest challenges in my life is to identify motives. In the Bible, Jesus was incredibly accurate about detecting people's motives. Some preachers were able to sense a person's righteousness or ulterior motives, Rev. Stephen Tong said he could usually tell a person's "4 seasons" by just looking at their faces.

No doubt, this is a very sensitive matter, because motives can easily be misinterpreted with damaging consequences. As a result, some believe that we should stay away from people's motives. I think, that it is not wrong to admit our limits, but to stop others from exceeding our limits, is rather selfish, it would only result in more ignorance or jealousy. It is better to admit it our individual limits, and be quiet.

More is required from those who are given more. Those who are given more cannot treat matters lightly. They must know whatever anger they control, it must be for the sake of God's glory.

Often times, I find myself too trusting people. However, it is also important that I remind myself not to later cast doubts on everyone else. So that I remain sober, marching forward for God.

Conclusion, it is important to be wise as serpents, however, in the end, it is better to be fooled once, than to accuse wrongly.