As harsh as it can be, I feel it is right I write this, to keep myself sober. As the old saying goes: If you hang with fools long enough, you will be as foolish as them.
From the handling of the choir today, the pastor's management s incredibly defective. I must say, I've never seen anything this bad. The worst management I've ever seen in my life. Even all my suggestions which have actually forseen all these problems with solutions, were already ignored completely by her in the first place, thus creating some chaos and Uzzahs (of course, the creation of Uzzahs is almost a mandatory thing for Chinese Ameristians).
Worse, she's operating in such a background that no one can really tell she was the main decider of all things she's made sure to be. I would say, it would be an excuse if she is to say, this is something equally burdened by every co-workers. A mistake the congregationalists would make, which is why she of all people, shouldn't make such mistake, unless her idea of the establishment of elders is simply traditional and not the why behind it.
On the sympathy side, I'd say she's like Moses, trying to handle everything on her own.
But not trusting people to do things, just like Lyna and many others showing caring by looking down on people, is not something I would easily attribute to Moses, for Moses listened and learned.
At least now I know the total incompetence of these people when it comes to management (something I've always thought myself deprived of), this is something I should have taken over completely or not at all. Like how Kong Ming accepted the position of military advisor.
These are not perfectionists, they seek not perfection, they seek not God's glory IN THEMSELVES. What they seek, is other bodies jumping into the lake of fire with them.
I will, with my best ability and whatever authority given me, care for them, show them the right way, in all wisdom and discipline. But at the same time, I must seek the right opportunity to say to them: I don't want to associate myself with you all.
This is not to condemn them, but to provoke them, so that they either vanish into oblivion or turn themselves toward perfection for Christ, our Lord.
And if they think they could "reward" me by introducing me to famous people they believe they're themselves so acquainted with, such as Rev. Stephen Tong and such, I'd either say, "Woman, what have I to do with thee?" or "Rev. Stephen Tong, I know, but who do you think you are?"