Attic Camera - After I kept seeing the backyard neighbor's constant gatherings on their porch on their second floor balcony, usually for BBQ, with the whole crowd overlooking our backyard, today (Saturday), I've finally moved my attic camera towards the window, so that I can also happily view them back without being creepy. I had tried to be neighborly with them once, but they never opened the door when I knocked on it the first time long ago. I figured, this must be rental tenants. Now I have an incredibly good view overlooking their porch as well as their neighbor's swimming pool. Of course, my camera's goal is to view my backyard...eh...hem.
Browsing and thinking after some Facebook posts from people who are supposed to become great Christian leading figures, but are not. I'm basically talking about people like Alex, Michael, pastors' kids. There's one, probably, David Tong, who's leading a few projects, but I cannot be certain of the motive and position given to him, since he is the son of a great preacher, this one I can only wait...pray...observe. As for the rest, a lot of them, are rather disappointing. Some used to lead youth groups, but of course, they weren't really of reformed influence, so I don't put much hope there anyway. The goal is supposed to be great in Christian living, the light of the world, not being identical with secular or pagan community with the mere label of being called Christian or go serving in church every week. There's no Christian infusion in their lives. Both David and Michael are sort of on the right track, however, David and Michael both deserted their U.S. ministries...I don't know, perhaps until the situations or economics in Indonesia or Taiwan worsen in the future, it's unlikely they'll use their special passes to U.S. I'm imagining they both should have at least green card if not citizenship by now, at least that's what I've heard or observed so far. And if that is the case, I will be wise to stay away. But these two are definitely better the the rest, because they are in some ministries. Despite Michael's own faults, he's been through some, after all, it was people like Rev. Laura Lin who even privately called me to stay away from Rev. Stephen Tong when he was bringing Michael Liu here and there in New York, saying that otherwise, she would not support me or something (as if I needed her Uzzah style support). I'm sure David Tong probably had gone through similar struggle from people who were jealous of him or his people as well.
I need to focus less on the school I'm managing and more on other venture, most likely in the computing field. The hope is to have someone else trustworthy enough to pick this up and I'll even stay for I.T. Nadia's wish to turn it into Pak Tong's institute reminded me that this world is not for me. This is only for the business minded, if it's educational, it's likely secular only. The news of Bill Gates' divorce may intrigue many because this is a very very rich guy, but it's nothing new to me. I never look up to material wealth and shouldn't, and I even despise most of such who pursue it. So let them defend themselves with their money and fame on their divorces and what not, I really don't think they can walk through the needle's hole, much less a camel. The only examples of rich men of God are not like these, not even like most of those in the Charismatic churches (I don't know of any in other denominations, but if so, there's probably no difference either). It's not about how much you give. It's about how much you left remaining for yourself. The sum of a whole life style. For example, they'll have to do a lot more than my time spent pondering about theology, to really convince me otherwise. Otherwise, those donations or whatever giving they put out are no difference than one who doesn't need God - there are great Muslims, Buddhists who are rich and doing likewise. In fact, it would only show that if they align with these other religion ways, that perhaps they weren't Christian to begin with. Getting donations may be a blessings from the Lord, but the givers will be judged in a very different manner by God. The Lord may eventually say "I never knew you." It's like this, a rich so called "Christian" could one day say to the Lord: "Lord, look, I love you, but please excuse me from all these boring stuff with you, just support me and I will do my best to accumulate great profits and share with everyone", I imagine when they are being judged, God will reveal their true heart in such manner, and they will admit that they find God boring at times and desire themselves to have their own time apart from God, from time to time. They feel no remorse for quitting relationship with God for something they could enjoy just for themselves once a while - such as the pursuit of their own wealth, their own happiness, their own whatever.