GCC Sunday Service 06/04/2023

Sunday School on Religious text, very brief: Quran (variant original manuscripts compiled and then finally codified by Caliph Uthman, thus not as direct revelation as the Muslims claim to be), Hindu text (I didn't get to see the slideshow points due to distant seating). Didn't touch on Buddhism, perhaps short on time. This is a membership related series. Last Sunday School we looked at various English translations of the Bible. The pastor used this site for data: https://notjustanotherbook.com/biblecomparison.htm

Sermon on 1John 3:1-10 "Born of God". I think wolves in sheep's clothing was mentioned. But I digressed: I suddenly pondered on the idea "wolf in sheep's clothing, rather than in shepherd's clothing, so that no sheep has an excuse for not listening to The Shepherd (The Lord)but the wolves instead. Would wolves in sheep's clothing also indicative of shepherds (pastors) being fooled?

During the morning 8:30am praise team rehearsal, Tom & Eleni brought up that Paul & Moses were weak in speech. I debunk the part about Moses right away, since it was obvious in Acts 7 (and you can't ignore God's rebuke against Moses by the bush) However, I believe that the verse they were referring to for Paul's problem was 2Corinthians 11:6: where the Greek being: ἰδιώτης (idiotes)
KJV: "rude" in speech
ESV: "unskilled" in speaking
CUV: 我的言语虽然粗俗,我的知识却不粗俗

I would prefer the KJV's translation in this case as it does fit in organically in the context. Paul is certainly not "unskilled" in speaking, 2co11:5, Acts 26:24, etc. Luke's account of Paul certain was not what people today interpreting "unskilled in speaking" would think. What then, did Paul lied? Nay, but this is relative knowledge, relative truth, it depends who you are comparing to (and so obviously not to God - those who jump at "God" as the answer do not see the clear distinction between Creator and creation). However, it would seem that Paul was a very straightforward and rude person, similar to Martin Luther. And we know, no one would say Luther had speech impediment. After further digging into this, I would say Paul was not the kind of polished speaker in such a way that he's not like Joel Osteen or some slick speaker like the lawyers, motivational speakers especially trained in rhetorics (1Cor 1:17 "not with words of eloquent wisdom"), which have nothing to do with being having trouble speaking or stutter. As far as critics of his time goes: ἐξουθενέω (exoutheneo)
2Cor10:10 "...his speech contemptible" KJV
"...his speech of no account" ESV
"言语粗俗" CUV

Given the fact that Paul's often comparing himself relatively tiny, 1Cor 4:4 "I know nothing by myself" even though we all know Paul knew a lot. It is always better to be good at rhetoric, but that should not be something the members of church should be fooled by.

I had also during the sermon thought about this all of the sudden: God allows liberalism to increase in the West perhaps to deal with balancing the antithesis of the East and vice versa. This pondering I think is crucial in evaluating the future outcome of the world before God.

On our church's first (...perhaps in a long time) outreach ministry regarding praying for challenges. I explained to Eleni a couple of weeks ago that the reason I won't be joining the outreach ministry was because I do not want to see this as the only one time evangelical event, to which she concurred. I elaborated to her because she seemed curious enough to know why even though she did not take the initiative to ask. Something Americans are more and more into, opposite to what I once thought of Americans the bold, the straightforward. I continued that I may ask for permission to participate after several such outreach activities have been done. She gladly replied "oh you don't need permission". I thought to myself, I do. I believe one must own one's ministry, or else, you let wolves in, you let the charismatics type in with all the wrong doctrines, and that is not good because this is not some ecumenical ministry where we could consider working with the like of the charismatics or evangelicals. As for prayer, I added: I will pray for even more challenge to the ministry. I believe I said it in response to her asking me to pray for the ministry to be a smooth going one. She said "Oh...no..." at first, but as I explained, she immediately agreed. However, after she told me the following week (last Sunday praise rehearsal) that she announced it on Tuesday prayer meeting (that I would pray for opposition to the ministry, or something like that), I immediately questioned if she got any push back, to which she said they just chuckled. However, after our fellowship meal that day, where the pastor met up with the outreach team, which I joined, to give us some pointers. I agreed with most parts: Let God work, don't fight, you're in someone's house (private property), etc. until he talked about walking away when tough questions are asked (i.e. is your church LGBT friendly, etc.) with the idea that these folks usually aren't interested in the Gospel, and eventually remarking what Eleni publicly shared on Tuesday indirectly by saying: "Do not pray for opposition, opposition is against God, praying for opposition is to be in opposition to God, it's not good to be against God" I thought to myself - ah...hah, I knew someone would not like it. Almost like a "I told you so" to Eleni. She texted me about it later. Even Rob just looked at me in silent after that as he had brought it up to me that day just before the fellowship meal in that both Rob and Eleni already understood what I meant about praying for challenges. I prefer the word challenge to opposition, which I doubt was the word I used. Of course, I've wondered about the pastor's principle of life and evangelism: The walk away from challenges, escapism, run away from politics, relax, hard work but don't look for more, and justifying it with God's blessing/providence instead is just a big problem with modern people in the West these days. As Stephen Tong would say: 沒做錯事因爲再來不做事。They would call this not indolence but wisdom. This would also be something I look to push back against Alex Tseng's anti-squeezism of Stephen Tong. True, overworking is always wrong, but the question is where is the borderline towards overworking? We were pushed pass imaginary limits all the time in school, at least the schools we used to have, and we never regret it today with gratitude. But today, this would come back as abuse, workaholic, etc.

Now I kind of figure that when pastor Chris mentioned about talking on PRAYER for next week's Sunday School, it must be because of what I told Eleni. I guess he could add on top of "we are not to go against God", with "we are not to pray to God for temptations, but lead us not into temptation instead". Of course, all these, if it solidify, not only shows a serious misunderstanding of what I said and the lack of basic mature fellowship quality (though better than most others who keep their homes closed to others) not to mention pastoral care to reach out to me to discuss this after all these time of fellowship (we've started attending this church since April 2021), but also the shallow fundamentalist take on any debate: when you cannot defeat your opponent, you go for the strawman. Equating praying for challenges to grow in apologetics to opposition to ministries.... to opposition to God. Not to mention using the "pulpit" to do this, even though technically it's not a pulpit but similar nonetheless when others don't get the convenient chance to rebut. But it is fine, this pastor loves the Lord in serving Him, just that the Bob Jones background got to him perhaps. I don't know. His uncle as well, whom I do not know but figure must be some fundamentalist Baptist minister. It's as if I am dealing with someone who doesn't believe in God exercising men via burdensome tasks (Ecc 1:13), baptizing us with FIRE! (Mat 3:11, Luk 3:16), "I have not come to bring peace, but a sword" (Matthew 10:34-36). Also, Revelation 3:18 "buy from Christ gold refined by fire" can also be read into challenges, trials, etc. The keyword that is better than suffering would be "refinement", "refining", to refine us. It's a challenge, a good one from the Lord for me to deal with this in love and to better my argument, sharpening my doctrine on things. I even learned from the classic show Beverly Hills 90210 which I just started to watch with Nadia at times: "Even though I'm not perfect, but I'm not a jerk". This is my text response to Eleni:

Hi brother, I had no idea Pastor was going to mention the prayer for opposition. I understand your intent is the goal to grow our faith; Much like a missionary we heard about that prays for persecution here in the US so the church will grow. In any case, I do agree with Pastor that we should pray for God to work and we should pray that he will bless the means used to share the gospel. If there is opposition, May the Lord give us wisdom and discernment and May He protect us. Please pray for that as well. God bless you and Nadia!!

Howdy sister! Haha, I was thinking then I should pray for even 10 times the challenge.

I figured there would be opposition had you brought it up to others. This stuff needs time to unpack, or it would be taken out of context. But since it's done through 3rd party and such I'll just assume the benefit of the doubt, that something got lost in communication LOL.

I'm with John Wesley when he reacted to St. Patrick's ministry (if memory serves) being so well received in Ireland, by saying: If the preaching brought no attack, either there's no devil in this world or he did not preach the Gospel of Christ.

But of course, you got my point. The key is to see God at work, so the more challenge (perhaps better than 'opposition') the greater we could praise and glorify God and less of ourselves, while at the same time, we LEARN to witness Christian love/wisdom and not combative hatred/ignorance which is what natural men expect to others. So I agree with the rest of what Pastor said 😉 Perhaps there are better words for me to choose, maybe I'm just not that good of a poet 🙂 Bottom line, We don't celebrate hardship but do need it in this world especially in our fallen state, that's just natural. Even the Greeks knew when they say: The unexamined life is not worth living.

Amen!

[I made reference to "not that good of a poet" as a sarcasm to what the pastor said of no one studies poetry today when they took English phrases like "cut off your arm" literally in the Bible]

So yea, I treat it as a good "OPPOSITION" what happened today at the meeting 🙂 Something for me to think about, choice of words use, etc. 🙂

Here's one of my favorite prayer by General Douglas MacArthur, the fundamentalist[s] might push back on this as well, but I believe it's a good prayer:

Build me a son, O Lord, who will be strong enough to know when he is weak, and brave enough to face himself when he is afraid; one who will be proud and unbending in honest defeat, and humble and gentle in victory.
Build me a son whose wishes will not take the place of deeds; a son who will know Thee—and that to know himself is the foundation-stone of knowledge.
Lead him, I pray, not in the path of ease and comfort, but under the stress and spur of difficulties and challenge. Here let him learn to stand up in the storm; here let him learn compassion for those who fail.
Build me a son whose heart will be clean, whose goal will be high, a son who will master himself before he seeks to master other men, one who will reach into the future, yet never forget the past.
And after all these things are his, give him, I pray, enough of a sense of humor, so that he may always be serious, yet never take himself too seriously. Give him humility, so that he may always remember the simplicity of true greatness, the open mind of true wisdom, and the meekness of true strength.
Then I, his father, will dare to whisper, ‘I have not lived in vain.’ ~ Douglas MacArthur

Excellent! I love that!! So sorry I mentioned your prayer to the Pastor. Something did get lost in the translation. I knew what you meant.

This is worth memorizing, especially for this coming Sunday: "Lead him, I pray, not in the path of ease and comfort, but under the stress and spur of difficulties and challenge. Here let him learn to stand up in the storm." But of course, I would add, more importantly, as we put up the good fight, let us remember, it is God at work and not us, we are but witnesses in God's Spirit. The greater the challenge I wish, to see the greater God's glory and honor.

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Vocabulary: Bucolic

Relating to the pleasant aspects of the countryside and country life.

Learned this from the email on Maine by Scott's Cheap Flights Going.

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Weekly-ish updates

Japan allowing copyrighted materials for A.I. training. This is interesting in that I have always stand against the whole world on this: That there is no such thing as intellectual properties. I just never thought of it coming from the intervention of A.I. Although from the article, Japan was more about ambition than making sense in this case.

6/21/2023 Today marks the Summer Solstice:

An equinox (equal night) occurs at the start of the spring and fall. The solstice occurs during the summer and the winter. In 2023, occurs on March 21 (Vernal equinox) and on September 23 (Autumnal equinox). Occurs on June 21(Summer Solstice) and on Dec 22 (Winter Solstice).

There's storms and rain forecasting this week and the next. And I have to drive to do my root canal at Ridge Family Dentistry at 11AM tomorrow, 6/22. Hopefully the road would not be too drench. This would be my last visit for the permanent crowning. The last stage. I need to tell my dentist that the crown needs to be shaving down more as I could feel that my current temporary crown is being hacked by the upper teeth and it is touched first than my left side teeth when jaw is closed. Perhaps I need to do some orthodontia for teeth alignment. Perhaps the orthodontia should happen after the removal of my wisdom teeth, two at lower jaws at the very least. Upper jaw wisdom teeth don't seem to be presenting any trouble for now. I should ask my dentist regarding the order of these procedures (orthodontia or wisdom teeth first?)

I believe the long trouble of my back teeth and coughing were caused by the wisdom teeth, which impacted the adjacent teeth and also opened up some gum around them due to the push. This may also explain my jaw very temporal sore/hurt since years ago especially when I chew on this after long rest. I do feel that the Ridge Family Dentistry is a bit far (50 min drive) but it was an emergency in April when I chipped my tooth and Nadia's trusted one is the one Eleni whom she trust recommended. I'm also supposed to return to my endodontist (the one who drilled my tooth) in a year at Mid Jersey Endo, New Brunswick. But I am unsure if I should do so, would it be free? Probably not.

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Cliffwood LA Fitness Swimming Schedule

5/31/2023 7:20pm Wednesday (Worst I've seen, all 3 lanes occupied with at least 2 people. My lane added a third person after me and that guy doesn't even know much about swimming. When I cut short my time to get out, lots of oily body "Indians" came looking for a swim, I think they're looking for ways to have fun and showing of their muscular training. So, 7pm is perhaps not a good time for a swim, not especially after Spring. Although, not to mention that Holmdel LA Fitness' pool is currently shutdown and they kept postponing repair. Holmdel used to be better at pool facility before they stopped servicing. Right now, the best and closest facility is the Edison one, but that's 15-20 mins away, compared to Cliffwood's 6 min drive.

6/3/2023 7pm Saturday 2 swimmers in each of 3 lanes, including myself. Holmdel's pool is still closed.

6/12/2023 4pm Monday No one in the pool, but soon filled up around 4:30pm.

6/15/2023 10pm Thursday No one but me. Then a guy named Hasan came to ask swimming lesson from me at the end.

6/19/2023 7am Monday From 3 people to 6 people in the pool over the hour.

New stats will be entered in the comments and edited in this online Excel sheet.

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Music Theory: Chords, Harmony, history, etc.

A good site where I could download cliff note versions of music theory topics: https://tobyrush.com/theorypages/ Saved entirety to my Library. I think I would compare the Russian's Sposobin and this, especially in the field of harmony.

This is also a good start, Harmony in 7 mins by Nahre Sol:

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Hiber3D - Building interactive 3D Worlds on the web the easy way

I was going to look into UNITY3D, UNREAL Engine. But I think this one is likely easier and more motivating: https://hiberworld.com/

You can publish it at Hiberworld or at your own site and there apparently are plenty of "artists" using it already, I've tested a couple sample site, not bad, even features multiple players and chatting ability. My intention for this sort has always been educational: i.e. 3D tour of museum, arts, or motivational biblical game, etc.

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I dreamt that Nana Passed

This morning I woke up sort of crying.

I had dreamt that my dear nana (fell sick I think, as I couldn't remember exactly the cause of death, and) eventually passed away. I believe our bedroom resembled that which we rented in Brighton Beach, Brooklyn. And when she was passing, it was as if I didn't care to follow her to the hospital or whichever, perhaps not that I didn't care, but I didn't think that I was either allowed to follow or something prevented me to or maybe even assuming that she would come back, but no, it was quite certain that would be the last I would see her and I knew it before then in the dream. As she was leaving to the last place, I believe it was my parents who took her and I basically parted her there on the second floor alley of my parents' Penang house, walking downstairs.

After that, my dream went to a different story all together, where I think Willy, myself and Nadia were hiking to a place to camp or something.

Then it was back to where I had lost Nadia in the dream, as if the hike was a reminiscent of the past or just the way dreams play tricks. There I laid in bed for the first time in that Brooklyn apartment bedroom without my wife sleeping next to me. As I realized what I had lost, thought back about Nadia, the trouble I've caused her, the labor she'd done for me and what we had together, I began to cry and grieve, even now as I type this. This woke me up. It was around 7:30am.

I believe this dream was influenced by several factors: The Ted Lasso episode (3x11) I watched the night before, where Jamie Tart suddenly felt depressed, humbled, and Ted also confronted his mother about not dealing with grieve and pain and treated everything happy dandy. The replay of the video I took of Nadia walking up the stairs to our room in Penang house, with her innocent face turned playful:

The health issue Nadia had that wasn't taken care of in Malaysia (shivering hands in search of Chinese remedy) because she thought there was no time (This should be the priority the next time we return). Things she had done and planned and my insensitivity to some of those. etc.

May this serves as a reminder every time I get frustrated with her.

Now I also thought to myself, where was my faith in all of this. Was my grief a godless one in the dream? May God have mercy. Only You are to be praised and remembered. May You guide me in true Christian fellowship with my wife. Amen.

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Christian Origin in Korea

Though there are other earlier accounts, the one I remembered most and have now found the detail, is the story about how foreigners carrying loads of bibles were killed and that the bibles were used as wallpapers in Korean homes, where the Bible was unwittingly introduced to visitors.

This is the account of Robert Jermain Thomas, born 1839, allegedly the first protestant martyr in Korea. Thomas married Caroline Godfrey, who shared mission field vision and went to Shanghai dispatched by London Missionary Society (LMS). Caroline unfortunately miscarried and passed away. Thomas wished to resign due to grief despite having even more zeal to completely serve and praise the Lord.

Then after being introduced by Alexander Williamson of the National Bible Society to Korean Catholics who had no Bibles, Thomas was greatly interested to serve in the "Hermit Kingdom" (Korea - fearful government of foreign influence and forbade contacts with westerners) where western literatures such as Bibles were banned and punishable with death for both distributors and recipients. Nonetheless, Thomas, helped by the Scottish Bible Society, obtained large number of Chinese Bibles for Korea, and found there were some willing to risk reading the Bible.

However, on a trip nearing Pyongyang, a group of hostile Koreans wrecked the Thomas' bible carrying American ship, Thomas was eventually killed, with some account that he begged them to take the Bible before being executed. The Bibles were then taken to the Korean homes but was ordered to be destroyed. All but one government official (Pak Yong-Sik) obeyed. Pak used the pages to wallpaper his house, which was later bought by Choi Chi Ryang, who knew of Thomas' event. 15 years after Thomas' death, Pyongyang was already holding around 100 churches and 1907 was a site of a major revival. Today there stood the Robert Jermain Thomas Memorial Church.

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Timothy Keller passed at 72 from Pancreatic Cancer this morning

With many posts on Facebook of this news, especially reading from those Christians who love criticizing reformed position, particularly on predestination and gender issue, I thought to myself: To achieve greatness, to be known, which although is not the goal, what is it that one is known and respected for? To be known and honored by those who have no idea of the position you stood against theirs? Or to be honored by those whom you have made clear of your opposing views with each other nonetheless?

I believe Keller is one of those whom if you truly know him, you know what he's criticizing, even against those who were looking up to him yet didn't get it. This is one example, by my guess:
My last phone call conversation with Tim was on a late Sunday night – it was a rare occurrence, to be sure, so I had thought that perhaps he wanted to speak about something urgent. I was amazed that he wanted to talk about how to communicate a Christian theory of truth to a twelve-year old. He called from Bethesda, Maryland, where he was receiving treatment. He was always thinking about how to talk about Jesus well. Tim was an evangelist to the very end.

My first impression from the above statement was: That Keller probably saw some talent and interest in Sutanto but that he wished Sutanto to gear his gift in theology towards the lay people rather than the academia. But Keller does it so subtly as he always did, that most people just don't get it and focused on his hospitable tolerant manner instead. His wife, Kathy, had balanced that out after all. Of course, this is highly speculative on my part, though not without good reason. I would that Nathaniel in his last line said something like "Tim was a surprising yet humbling mentor to me to the very end" instead. But what Sutanto didn't get, I shall keep in my heart.

Keller's desire to be with the Lord on multiple occasions is publicly known as his son Michael Keller made sure of it:

He expressed many times through prayer his desire to go home to be with Jesus..."I’m thankful for the time God has given me, but I’m ready to see Jesus. I can’t wait to see Jesus. Send me home."

This is a wake up call to all mediocre Christians, those who might fear that they are too far from the Lord, that they have drenched themselves in mud so deep in hypocrisy that they would be shy to have Jesus look at them in the end.

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Side Income from a developer's perspective, and a programmer's must read today

Today's TLDR newsletter: A thorough article by Sasidhar Gadepalli on the subject. I pasted the entire article in comment in case the link gets broken. It's valuable as it gives example sites and services to deal with the gigs mentioned.

On the must read, I also pasted the entire article in the comments, just in case.

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